So, the last time I posted was July 18 2013. WOW!
Hi, blog nice to meet you again baby. I miss you.
Well to add on, Im still feeling the same way i did in the other post but with added shit.
Im on this HUGE journey.
What is it you may ask?? well, Its a journey to Self actualization.
I want to do more creative things. I want to paint, do yoga, run, laugh, make friends, dress better, be free.
I want to start making my own shit.
There's so many things I want to do.
Do you think I should make a list and slowly but surely cross them out?
Friday, October 31, 2014
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Maybe its just PMS
I really don't know how to start off, I'm thinking should my first post be a touchy feely one, a bitchy one, a laid back one, or one that just describes me. I think thinking this is just a part of me. Im a lonely, complicated , overthinky bitch. I over think so much that it's a fuck curse. I think my self in to warp holes of sadness and depression. Im unsure. unsure about life, my contributes to it, and what I can offer.
Today I'm really feeling in to my feelings, if you know what I mean. Its a hot summer day in Chicago and I got nothing to do. but maybe mope around and wish I had a boyfriend. Im texting this one guy who idk how I feel about him. Hes like the only guy in my phone because I'm that lonely bitch. Hes really great, I just wish he would know that. Enough of that tho.
Detour: My sadness consumes me. Im a mess. I feel like it too emotional for life. anything just makes me wanna cry. both happy and sad tears but full tear never come out at an important time like a death.
Another thing.... today i got so jealous. jealous of someone who I wont name. Im not sure why I got jealous. I think i have this thing were when i feel like someones living life grated than me i just wanna be them. Rather then making my life great. you know?
I'm siting here waiting for a reply from the guy above. I texted him and mind you the kid takes forever to text back. Sometimes he never responds back. so ive lowered my expectations for getting an instant response but I still would like one back. Sometimes I feel like Im on him too much. like a GF, which I am not. I hope he doesn't feel that way. Imma ask him.....maybe.
i guess im about to end this post...
Oh yeah, i forgot to introduce myself.
but maybe ill leave that for later. but just call me octimus prime!! lol nah lilly.
Today I'm really feeling in to my feelings, if you know what I mean. Its a hot summer day in Chicago and I got nothing to do. but maybe mope around and wish I had a boyfriend. Im texting this one guy who idk how I feel about him. Hes like the only guy in my phone because I'm that lonely bitch. Hes really great, I just wish he would know that. Enough of that tho.
Detour: My sadness consumes me. Im a mess. I feel like it too emotional for life. anything just makes me wanna cry. both happy and sad tears but full tear never come out at an important time like a death.
Another thing.... today i got so jealous. jealous of someone who I wont name. Im not sure why I got jealous. I think i have this thing were when i feel like someones living life grated than me i just wanna be them. Rather then making my life great. you know?
I'm siting here waiting for a reply from the guy above. I texted him and mind you the kid takes forever to text back. Sometimes he never responds back. so ive lowered my expectations for getting an instant response but I still would like one back. Sometimes I feel like Im on him too much. like a GF, which I am not. I hope he doesn't feel that way. Imma ask him.....maybe.
i guess im about to end this post...
Oh yeah, i forgot to introduce myself.
but maybe ill leave that for later. but just call me octimus prime!! lol nah lilly.
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