Today I'm really feeling in to my feelings, if you know what I mean. Its a hot summer day in Chicago and I got nothing to do. but maybe mope around and wish I had a boyfriend. Im texting this one guy who idk how I feel about him. Hes like the only guy in my phone because I'm that lonely bitch. Hes really great, I just wish he would know that. Enough of that tho.
Detour: My sadness consumes me. Im a mess. I feel like it too emotional for life. anything just makes me wanna cry. both happy and sad tears but full tear never come out at an important time like a death.
Another thing.... today i got so jealous. jealous of someone who I wont name. Im not sure why I got jealous. I think i have this thing were when i feel like someones living life grated than me i just wanna be them. Rather then making my life great. you know?
I'm siting here waiting for a reply from the guy above. I texted him and mind you the kid takes forever to text back. Sometimes he never responds back. so ive lowered my expectations for getting an instant response but I still would like one back. Sometimes I feel like Im on him too much. like a GF, which I am not. I hope he doesn't feel that way. Imma ask him.....maybe.
i guess im about to end this post...
Oh yeah, i forgot to introduce myself.
but maybe ill leave that for later. but just call me octimus prime!! lol nah lilly.